Moving On – To Success

move onThis Season of Lent, I’m reflecting on what happened to me in the past. How I endured those past miseries from the time I finished my college up to my last employment. I prayed that as much as possible, I can continue being self-employed for the rest of my life because I know that being employed, no matter how long you stay in the company, you will still leave it. Yes it’s true you can get another job but for the reason that the business that you were employed with is not yours, you will still have to leave it either by retrenchment, retirement or termination.

After I finished college, I was helping my mother’s business being a delivery driver and a store keeper and sometimes I’m a cook when no one is around to help. My father has his own business, a foundry, which he doesn’t want us to mess around so my mother decided to make her own. Although my father is still the bread winner, my mother started her own business because she wants to sustain her expenses. She started a hollow block machine fabrication shop, The Atlantic Machinery Hollow Block Machine fabrication in our front yard. Aside from that, a small hardware and general merchandise store. We were living in Valenzuela City that time. I’m the only one who was really helping my mother run her business even though I have a younger brother still living with us. I was a delivery driver of hollow block machine and if there were no orders a store keeper in our hardware store. I also help buy the materials for the machine fabrication and assisting and attending the workers needs.

I wasn’t born in an harmonious family and there many problems that time, including financial problems. I endured all those problems but there is one thing that my mother did to me that made me think that it’s “the last straw”. I decided to get a job just to escape the problem and find a quick way to get on my own. After that I got married and left our house. Maybe that is the right decision but come to think of it, if only I focused on pursuing my dreams instead of running away from the things I hate, I might be a successful businessman right now. This is our common fault. Because of our haste, we make wrong decisions of taking anything our hands could get just to run away from the things we hate. Afterwards, when we come to our senses, we realized that we don’t really like what we get into.

That’s what happened to me when I hopped from job to job seeking career advancement and ended up in hell hole. It was my third employment which I pray, should be the last. I thought the company I was employed with will make a dramatic increase in my career advancement and will became my dreamland. Since it’s a multinational Swiss company, I was expecting a lot of change for the good. Like the saying goes, “Not all that glitter is gold” is true. The disappointment was aggravated when a manager was hired for our engineering department. He was like an express delivery from hell sent by Lucifer himself all wrapped up in a nice package for me as a present. I was a slave for ten years with the wicked manager and after ten years I finally ended up being included in their latest retrenchment. Although I really wanted to leave that company since that little gremlin came, because of fear of loosing a job and ending up with a moron like him even if I change my job, I was bound in shackles and can’t leave the company.

Although I have this fear, I also have the focus in attaining freedom by thinking of having my own business someday. The internet helped me a lot in pursuing my dream and that time I was also earning beside my salary. Maybe I have to thank my persecutor, because of him I’m motivated to pursue my dreams although his intentions are bad. Again the saying “The end doesn’t justify the means” is true. They set me free by force, and it creates a lot of heart ache and vexation because of fear, but still, on the other side of the coin, I will leave them anyway if I won the lotto or with a stroke of luck succeeded on my online ventures. I always thought that all bad things that are happening to us are blessing in disguise.

So the bottom line is, we should move on, forgive and forget the past for us to see the clear picture of the present and the future. All the things that are happening to us is for our learning. So with that let me leave you with this verse:

“Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us.” Romans 5:3-5